Link me if you want to...

this is not a tribute

2009-09-11T01:02:00.003+08:00

so school's been great.

new environment, new things to learn, new friends to meet.. yeahh, it's been pretty exciting, i dare say. yeahh..

one of the bigger highlights would be that i joined the CSS. that would be the Catholic Students Society. yah, and i joined the comm for Music Ministry! yay, fun! =D
so yeahh, made quite a fair bit of new friends and all... and i still keep meeting new ppl every now and then.

school work's been hectic. tutorials are mostly doable, the remaining few being perfectly impossible to do. then there's the crazy long lab days as well. it's all just so very tiring.. but i love it all the same. somehow, i'm kinda more driven than usual to actually work (strange phenomenon, i know) =S

oh yeah another thing, i'm also currently attending the CLP (Christian Life/Living(?) Program) of cfc, and yea after the whole thing i'll be hopefully part of the Singles for Christ community(graduate from YFC already T.T) haha! =)

so yea, that's pretty much what's new and exciting for me. laters! @)-,--

matric fair

2009-07-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

so matriculation fair was fun.
a hell lot of queuing. and queuing. and queuing.
oh and carrying those heavy goodie bags..

what fun.. (i mean seriously, not sarcastically)

i've an NUS student card now
complete with retarded looking mugshot

life is great.

of tiredness

2009-07-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

the past few days have been tiring. been sleeping late then waking up early the next morning..
and apart from that, the days themselves had actually been very busy.

(as i've promised myself, i'll try to avoid going blow by blow too much)

so yeah. wednesday was choir prac in the evening which ended late. then thursday's more or less whole day university welcome speeches and briefings and what. then friday, the "around singapore" mrt trip because of various stuff i needed to go to and all... weekdays were really tiring.
and then there was the weekends.

saturday, i attended the Discovery Camp. well, part one of it that is.. but not before i needed to hunt for a somewhat elusive immigration stamp and all.. so yah, eventually came late (a bit) for the Discovery Camp and yah. it was fun i guess. especially workshops and all. and ended up home rather late. it was really tiring but fun nonetheless

but wait.. there's more

for sunday (today) went with some YFCs to conduct the youth camp training for the JB youth camp this august. yah... woke up early, went over to JB, had training (i was team lead O.O), then yah.. it was fun i guess.. serving, leading the team, listening to the talks and all..
BUT! it's! all! just! so! TIRING!

so yea... and now you should wonder.. why am i not sleeping yet...

well, these busy days now, it really got me thinking, especially while listening to the talks from the Discovery Camp and from the camp training earlier and all. thinking about alot of different stuff and whatnot... like how i think i'm beginning to fall so badly again.. baaa..

and writing all these down really helps me to consolidate the thinking more...

and that's why i'm still blogging..

and that's why i'm stopping now.,

lecture me silly

2009-07-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

first time i really felt like a university student

and i wrote a poem during the dean's welcome

great...

5am... almost.

2009-07-22T04:11:00.002+08:00

i love blogging late at night/early in the morning

great, now it's you not her... no improvement at all on my part

silent save for the sound of the aircon.

i'm sorry i had to fall for you... stupid on my part i know...

ahh, bliss...

@)-,-- baaa

makes me think more... even though less clearly at times...

ahh well.

huh..

2009-07-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

..why?
i feel like i know you so well, yet you're such a stranger to me...

no really, why?

under-productive

2009-07-13T15:20:00.004+08:00

yesterday was fun...

see today is just so boring so i'm forced to go back to talking about yesterday.....

*ehem* where was i?
oh right, yesterday...

yesterday was fun. it was sunday so yeah, as usual, i had at least two things to be at and had to pick one only. well, this time i didn't really have much of a choice, seeing as to how i was supposed to give a talk for the YFC PA.. so yeah..

woke up early to mentally prepare myself for the talk. then left house to go for 10.15 mass... attended mass, then met some ppl to tell them i couldn't go for the sunday session thing for Project J, and off i was to the PA.

along the way, met the Villanuevas and bus-ed with them to CAEC. then once there, continued to prepare myself for and stuff. easily an hour later, ppl started coming then had to set up then more ppl started coming, then PA started.

~PrayerAssembly~

then after the PA.... oh wait, right, i gave a talk on the PA. "Stairway to Heaven". was about holiness and what not. was fun lah i guess, even though i've never really liked public speaking, giving talks and what not (only my second YFC talk ever).
then yah.. after that, we all practically hung out and stoned at CAEC until what time, until the ppl who went for mass came back.

after that we all went to go and eat dinner. the plan was to go to ChompChomp, some eatery at serangoon gardens there. BUT the place ah.. was bloody crowded i tell you. so in the end, we went to like opposite the road to eat. at some place there that had Astons. was nice lah, i guess. then went home after that, and that was the day.
mark and me ordered and paid for some chicken thing, but we got a more expensive fish set... value for you money eh... hehehe..

yep.. fun times...

and now i'm here, monday, stoning at home...
ahh well.. life's like that.
won't you ever notice my ever yearning eyes for you... @)-,--

yes

2009-07-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

okay now really... i planned to blog a one liner... i forgot what i wanted to write.

okay moment over...

damn.....

random

2009-07-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

yes, i'm always confused

but never mind that..
today was fine. fun actually. went out for a random movie, then meeting about camp stuff (but mostly just really catching up and talking about random stuff), then went to pass some brochures, then went home.

even though it looks rather weird, the series of events, i feel rather accomplished today *shrugs*

ahh well...
i'm going for some medical check up at NUS tmr. some med check up required for all freshies.
... oh, and did i mention i was accepted into NUS? ehehe =)

baaa @)-,--

stolen

2009-06-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

it's surprising

surprising how i can get myself so confused about everything all the time

surprising and annoying =.="

fickle minded

2009-06-29T08:34:00.002+08:00

okay

i know i said i'd stop that last time but... i'm just not one to do that i guess =S

alright on to blogging. so i've been on holiday, what's new? it's been holiday for me for so long now... i've basically tasted what it's like to be unemployed for over 6 months.
and the conclusion? I'd rather be back to studying any time!

so yeah, been busy with random stuff lately.. what with being active for project J and YFC. and Agape choir to boot (though i've been absent for over two weeks for that now...). yeah, life's fun for me i guess. but yeah, it gets boring at times.

i can't stand it how i'm so sure when i give advice to others yet i can't really live my life properly myself. okay random thought but, yeahh it's just that i really can't do that. it's like, i find myself ridiculous when i give advice, but at the same time people who i give advice to constantly say i really helped. so yeah, i'm annoyed basically. not annoyed with life but annoyed with myself at how i handle it. grrr...

okay rant over.
ahh well, i guess i just really needed somewhere to put that other than leaveing it in my head to fester. alright, i'm off to kick some ninja or zombie butt! (depends on which game i play later)

hehe.. peace out. @)-,--

Postings!

2008-12-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

yay! today is over..

it was just another everyday lahh.
wake up early for cleaning the house
then prepare for bro's christmas gathering thing with his office mates later
then the gathering itself
then go out to go to the simbang gabi
then get there super early, so end up joining the choir
then sing for the mass, even though i'm the only one wearing blue (every guy was wearing maroon, Lol)
then bother shane a bit after the mass.. heh
then go home with family!
hahaha.. tiring day..
more or less fun lah. hahah. wheeee

white

2008-12-19T10:56:00.002+08:00

do you even know this blog exists... blah...

you know, i hate it really, not being able to talk to you as easily as before.
do you want it as it was last time? would you stil have me there by your side?
i can't really be sure..
it's been so long since we've had a 5am lah, woman. i can't stand it...
please... if you do ever read this... talk to me, slap me, whack my arm, hold my hand... anything!
i just so want to know if you'll still.... if you'd really still take me as you did then.
i just want things the way they were... can't i be at least that selfish?...
i don't want it to be over.

restart?

2008-10-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

I know I've said this alot

but I never followed through

I suck, I know.

HOPEFULLY this time will be different.

Oh and uhh, I have A'levels btw.
11 papers to go!~

Of worship and blessings

2008-06-12T12:34:00.004+08:00

This will be a taglish blog post so... readers(if any), beware.

Grabe.. Grabe talaga... ewan ba.

The past few weeks have been interesting. I've ano, started mag serve ulit sa YFC. Starting from nung PA sa Bishan Park, yung outdoor. anyways ano, parang ewan.. parang di nga ako absent for half a year. as in napaka welcome pa din.. ang saya..
plus i met... her.. and got her name... wahahahaha nvm..

Then ganun, na inspire mag serve ulit, lalo na may Cross Culture from pinas. may youth camp training which was fun, even though ano ang kaunti namin na nag attend. Pati si tito Randy ata participant eh Lol.. ano refresher yun yung mga talk and all. hmm....
well... this time got to talk to her Lol.. ganun....

Then CC came, and Discovery camp. ang.. grabe even though ang short nya (2 days) sobrang saya. participants kami lahat kasi CC yung service team.. well... meron yung mga kami na parang half service team.. the oldies.. LOL
this time na halata na nya na ma crush ako sa kanya.. wahaha.. ganun... lalo na nung uwian na ata eh... =P

After Discov camp, yung mga experience with the CCs. touring them around Singapore, recollection(which i was absent from), workshops, yung JB camp for others, farewell dinner.. all in all a fun experience talaga.
pero ano eh.. di naka-attend sya eh.. and i found out later kasi banned pala sya from YFC activities by her parents... for her grades?.. ganun.. haaayy

And then... YOUTH CAMP... whee..
it was.... a different experience? ewan ba.. this time I was pretty much full time na music min. ano.. masaya talaga lalo na for me kasi my passion talaga is music and to servethe Lord in music.. bliss. ano nga eh, i established a new way of prayer for myself. always na may worship song na kasama.. it's optimum for me kung baga... heh..

first time experience pa(with Rico again, hahah) yung ano playing the baptism reflection songs and for the praisefest after (with tito Randy). grabe even though nagka cut na yung daliri ko go parin.. walang pagod. uplifting talaga... kudos to my other music min mates, Jamie for her wonderful voice, Rico and his lead guitaring, kuya Edmar for being kuya Edmar, and tito Randy for being our support talaga.. thank you for the wonderful experience!

and yung mga nights, ibang experience altogether.. by this time ano, she knew na that i like her.. well.. first night nandoon pa yung pang-asar so.. ewan ba.. didn't really talk to her... pero yung second night.. umiyak kasi sya eh, because yung youth camp was to be her like last na YFC activity until further notice... so i came to comfort and all..... (and the other girls let me into the room?? apparently i won their vote o.O)
long story short, we talked.. till 5 am.. and sent her to sleep... heh
and we haven't seen each other since from youth camp kasi nga banned sya... hai.. miss her terribly...

yun... love story ng buhay ko... ~~si Shane.. Shane de Mesa..~~ =)

so ganun... ang.. saya?.. nang buhay ko ngayon... ganun.. i wanna serve more! hahaha.. affirmed yung faith eh...

peace out..

-LOVED-

Disenchanted

2008-05-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

Life is... there..

.. and yet...

... it's not?

I lack the words to explain...

Disenchanted.

Cause i got lazy to think on what to post about...

2008-05-19T11:09:00.000+08:00

What Abelardo Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

blank and white

2008-05-03T12:04:00.002+08:00

to sum it all up, life is not what it used to be

School's been interesting lately, especially with what's been happening with my class recently. funny thing is, I think it all started with an innocent blog post. then resentment over the undeniably overbearing 'gang'. and now there's 12C and 12C'. it's hilarious lah, in it's nonsensicallity... and I the class chairperson does what? hang out with ppl from other classes and watch as a third party observer of course! ahh life of the mean and useless..

anyways.. yeah, J2 life is pretty interesting. if you call it a 'Life' in the first place. extra lessons here and there. tons of work to be completed. me not doing any. it's seriously like sec4 in Anderson all over again... only we're wearing stupid sack cloths for uniforms now. huh...

speaking of which, weather lately has been pretty much hellish. literally. temperatures are like up like mad and it's either freakin' dry of humid. what the heck is happening maaaan..

okay side note... nvm... well... yeah can't really think of anything to blog on right now. seeing as to how i'm CCA-less officially (stepped down already), academically quite stable, and dry as a desert rock on relationships... yeah life is GOOD =.="

that would be all right now i guess... hope i blog again some time? =P

old

2008-04-28T04:15:00.002+08:00

Hello world!..

yes, I know I haven't updated in like half a friggin year but hey, it's worth a try to start again eh. well, lemme just blow some of that dust off and perhaps pick some of those cobwebs and i'll be on my way.

first off, if you're wondering, yes, alot of things has happened in my life. It has been 6 months so that should be understandable. rest assured, the 'life'that I speak of, still as mundane as it can possibly get.
Lessons are a bore, as usual, with more and more work being rushed to complete the bloody syllabus in time for revisions. School social life, ahh not so bad, considering I've made more ppl like me than hate me this year so... yeah it's going pretty well. Church, not too shabby. Now going around as the 'sound guy' for the choir and all. pretty cool stuff actually. Love life? pfft forget it. one thing I realised lately, I network too much and focus too little so... yeah commitment wise, I'm pretty much screwed for ANY relationship except perhaps polygamy.

you wouldn't want me to go into detail about any of that for 6 months, that would be like genocide for brain cells due tro boredom or something.

yeah that's pretty much life for me. sucks but hey, I'm alive and well, can't complain.

much.

Remember, remember...

2007-11-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

5th of November..

Guy Fawks...

V for Vendetta.. damn I love that movie... haha

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant and vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition! The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."

Angels..

2007-09-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

...

I sit and wait

Does an angel contemplate my fate

And do they know the places where we go

When we're grey and old

'Cos I've been told

That salvation lets their wings unfold

So when I'm lying in my bed

Thoughts running through my head

And I feel that love is dead

I'm loving angels instead

...

And through it all she offers me protection

A lot of love and affection

Whether I'm right or wrong

And down the waterfall

Wherever it may take me

I know that life won't break me

When I come to call she won't forsake me

I'm loving angels instead

...

When I'm feeling weak

And my pain walks down a one way street

I look above

And I know I'll always be blessed with love

And as the feeling grows

She breathes flesh to my bones

And when love is dead

I'm loving angels instead

...

And through it all she offers me protection

A lot of love and affection

Whether I'm right or wrong

And down the waterfall

Wherever it may take me

I know that life won't break me

When I come to call she won't forsake me

I'm loving angels instead

...

Angels - Robbie Williams

Mid-course starting tml... GP paper... sigh..

sometimes I wish I wasn't....

Clarity

2007-09-21T03:27:00.000+08:00

I just realised as I was looking through my past posts.
This really is a 'feelings' blog of sorts...
All my posts are on particular days that holds important milestones for me... or something.

huh... sappiness guide to my life.. Lol

What i mean to say is that this blog, right.. most of the posts are driven by strong emotions at the time they were posted. Like this one, for example, is when this realization (albeit stupid to some eyes) really hit me squarely. Just shows how emotional a person I am eh... months with no posts, then suddenly a flurry.

-sigh-

I'm a wreck....

life ain't all milk and cookies... especially if you're lactose intolerant.

I need to think...

-- almost happy birthday --

So long and good night?

2007-09-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

I came to post with good intention...

I just wanted to be friends, and then what happened. sigh...

... but I think I'll just end up ranting so....

-tsk-

life's a bitch.

perfect balance.

2007-09-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

It's annoying in life when that time comes, when everything is just like that old playground see-saw with equal weights on both ends. It's when everything... as in really EVERYTHING.. is in limbo. Sure there are good stuff happening/that just happened but it's all balanced out by the bad. And that just sucks even more................. bleh..

On to happenings then.
Today was my church's feast day. Was fun lah, being there to serve at the church as part of the choir. All in all a wonderful experience... apart from the fact that I had a blocked nose so... how I could sing really was something.. heh.

Met new people, made new friends, sang new songs, lost some faith, then gained some.. sigh... that's life I guess...

And school. Right now, I'm having doubts about my decisions made this year actually. From day 1 of JAE, things had kinda been going south. I don't know but.. I haven't been comfortable in the school as before. BUT.... I don't really have a choice, do I? huh....
I still like Innova though. hah

ahh the beauty of the education system..

oh yah, Innova is having it's open house this saturday, 22nd Sept (my birthday.. huh...). If you're interested in joining the Innovioan family in the coming future, take this chance to learn more about the school!
riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.. wahahahahaha

By the way, I'm singing for my CCA there so.. go there to support? haha... like anyone still reads this blog anyway...

And life.....

..... and that's all.

disabledradar?
cupid's wrecking ball?
all just leaves much to be desired.....

ahh don't wanna think anymore.. may end up getting depressed.
sigh.............

tsk..

Poetry?

2007-05-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

Ottava rima? Me? That can't be right!
   Too frivolous? But tut, there's no such thing!
Let others ponder thoughts of wrong and right,
   Or sit and think how much they love the spring;
I'd rather spend my time in gleeful spite,
   Or maybe laugh, or maybe sit and sing.
Besides, it might be fun to be inspiring -
But surely it would get so very tiring.

What Poetry Form Are You?

Late late late post

2007-03-15T09:16:00.000+08:00

okay i know that this post is really REALLY late lah.. but sorry i'm not really your most diligent person here. heh

anyways...

yah alot has happened since the that 9points episode.
now i've been posted to my JC, Innova (surprise, surprise).
I've gone through orientation as an OGL (sucked though)
oh and I was TITANS!!! Ophion!
made some new friends
attended a poetry slam and a performance thing
got some admin ppl tell me they can't give me the subj combi I want =.=
had a YFC SHOUT (leaders' training thing.. fun!)
and gone through some bridging courses....

yah as you can see, ALOT of things happened... which is expected since it has been a month since I last updated =.= okay to start..

So yah I was posted back to Innova. and I'm happy about that mind you but I dunno.. it feels different now. Bah I'll get used to it in time I guess, it's probably just because there are so many new ppl in the school. So yah I was posted back.. oh and the school didn't give me my 4H2 combi.. cause they only offer Maths, Chem, ECONS & Phys/Bio if you want 4H2s... and I don't like econs so I put what I wanted lah which is my own combi, but all H2. someone from school called to tell me they couldn't give so they had to give me back my original combi. and advised me instead to try for H3(!!!!). I'm not that ambitious lah so yah i'm not planning that....

okay moving on... Orientation got stupid this time. the time table looks like this.

Day 1

0800 - 0810 Morning assembly

0810 - 0910 Something or another (cheering I think)

0910 - 1010 Principal's talk (zzz)

1010 - 1040 Break (yay!)

1040 - END TALKS! O.O

yah... and there was a lunch somewhere there. it ended at around 5 something so... yah it was BORING. notice there wasn't even OG interaction there.. so us OGLs didn't have any idea who the ppl in our OGs were. oh and my OG went from 24 in the morning to around 18 after lunch. haha.. and I'm surprised it didn't stayed there cause honestly I myself would've just skipped those talks. BORING!!
and then there was..

Day 2
0800 - 0810 Morning assembly
0810 - 1240 Mass LECTURES! urgh..
1240 - 1340 Lunch
1340 - 1410 OG interaction (FINALLY!!)
1410 - 1710 Station games + Cheering competition

yah that was day 2... actually games wasn't too bad lah. quite fun still... BUT! the mass lectures!! killed off the mood I tell you. my original OG had like what 11 ppl for the station games, 2 of whom were from another OG =.= so yah ended up my voice was almost dying from all the cheering. oh and I was transfered to Hyperion from Ophilion.. sad lah didn't go with my own OG. so yah that was it... stupid mass lectures....
then there was Day3.

uhh.. okay who am I kidding there wasn't Day3, the orientation ended just there and then. hah.. boring lah I tell you... PAE orientation was seriously more fun. so yah that takes care of the orientation.

Then after that, at the that weekend had a SHOUT! fun! even though there were only like 17 of us there think. had some talks and some worships.. oh and we went to Jurong the swimming complex there. hahaha. anyways the whole thing was fun lah.. and yah learned alot along the way...

then Sunday... went for combined choir practice, which was sad cause there were only like 6 of us from my choir which was very very few. then had Mass... then went to eat out with my family after that. and Monday I just did nothing at home.. Tuesday went to school to see what those bridging courses were about and to find out which class I had been posted to. 0712C!!! yeah!! and most of the class was posted back also.. haha... so yah then yesterday!

yesterday was fun.. first went to school for Lit and Chem.. I was late for Lit lah... the thing started at 8 and i reached school at what, 8.15... ahaha but it was okay lah. a good refresher. chem was just chem.. went through the first few PAE lectures. then after that went to just hang out with adil and zahd at Northpoint. it was fun lah to just hang out and talk. then walked around Northpoint abit, zahd bought something, then walked some more, then went home... was fun in a relaxing sort of way. so yah that was it.

...and that was it.

2007-02-11T04:41:00.000+08:00

Unless you live under a rock or outside Singapore, you'd definately know that O'level results were just released.

and yes I'm one of them who recieved my results last Friday

guess what...

9 BLOODY POINTS!!! woohoo!!!
ahahaha

it was totally unexpected lah. I mean I'm happy and all but seriously, 9 points??? I can count that in my hands. I wasn't expecting this and I thank God for all this. For Anderson, my friends, teachers, and those Cambridge markers who handled my papers. ehe

anyways, congrats to all those who did well, ya. and for those who didn't do as well... carry on lah. always remember there's more to life.. heh.

but now...

I'm confused liao
cause all along I was planning to stay in Innova (woot!) after O'level results. but my points ah.. I don't know if my parents would be to happy about my deciding to stay. tsk tsk tsk.. I must convince them. for my sake as well cause I don't think I'll survive in another JC. heh

and oh ya. I made it for OGL (Orientation Group Leader), if I'm not mistaken. ehe.. =)))

of hats and red bandanas..

2006-11-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

survived!

the week-of-almost-hell is over!

and so are the O'levels!

JUBILATION!!

hahaha.. right, on to posting.

my papers ended on the 17th actually. Friday. last paper was History Elective and honestly it was ****. ehe...
after the paper rushed home at Admiralty to change then went back to Ang mo kio to Edna's condo for BBQ. it was okay lah.. nice way to get away from everything and just relax for that while. had to carry some bags of charcoal though

-.-"

haha. anyways after that I had to leave early (8pm) and go to Jurong for YFC camp. I was service team/music min(still not very sure which).. and I was late. hehe. was supposed to be there like before 5pm.. I arrived at around 9.30.. wahaha.

so there I was, trotting in guitar and all while everyone there were in their group discussions. heh.. nice...

right.. so the camp was from Friday evening to Sunday noon. it was fun lah. lacked sleep though. haha... anyways, I contributed by playing guitar sometimes and what not. yeah.. it was nice lah, being able to serve and all.

=)

So yeah that kinda takes care of most of my weekend. haha.. after the camp went to church for choir in the evening.. then walked to Northpoint.. then went home.
nothing out of the ordinary lah..
and now I'm here (hehe).

yeah that's more or less everything... till next time then!

Post it!

2006-11-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

As you may or may not know, I have just given a new lease of life to this blog. I just hope I can keep up on posting and not make it boring or anything.

New life!

Anyways, I'm currently having my O's(yeah, the exams). Had French listening and E.Maths Paper2. Not too bad, lah, i guess... hope the rest of the papers are do-able like so far.
=X
Next week comes the week from hell. Exam each and every day. huh. Hope I survive through it all.. heh

Well I'm off then.. just posting 'cause can't sleep just yet..

Oh and to whoever's reading, it's not your com, the whole blog is just PLAIN WHITE.

Project Guitar 2

2006-11-09T16:17:00.000+08:00

Since the previous project wasn't really that succesful, I've decided to go old school on the song selection. And for this one I more or less know the guitar so it's more just memorizing the words. (sounds like cheating) Heh.. here we go...

Behind Blue Eyes
The Who (cover by Limp Bizkit)

No one knows what it’s like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

And no one knows what it’s like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

***But my dreams, they aren't as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That’s never free

No one knows what it’s like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain an’ woes
Can show through

***

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes

No one knows how to say
That they’re sorry
And don’t worry
I’m not telling lies

***

No one knows what it’s like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

Done.

That's it for now as I still have my French LC and E.Maths Paper2 tomorrow to prepare for. All the best for me? ehhe

Project, Guitar

2006-05-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Embarking on a new guitar project. It's called the "Geek in the Pink by Jason Mraz" project... see how unimaginative i can get?

Geek in the Pink
by Jason Mraz

Well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat full of rhymes
pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Well isn't it delicious crazy way that i'm kissin this
baby listen to this don't wanna miss it while it's hitting
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
but don't ever quit 'cause soon i'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what you might think about me
you'll get by without me if you want
Well I could be the one to take you home
baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
That I could be the one to turn you out
we could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away
Like the geek in the pink
Well like the geek in the pink, yeah
The geek in the pink

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
but cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
at least I'm talkin about her keep my pattern of flattery and
She was staring through the doorframe and
eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
cause I ain't comin' home, I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what she might think about me
she'll get by without me if she want
Well I could be the one to take her home
baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
That I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away

Hey baby look at me go
From zero to hero
you better take it from a geek like me
well I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
who wouldn't care if you com...plete them or not

so what, I've got a short attention span
a coke in my hand
because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
My hip hop and flip flops well it don't stop with the light rock
my shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-hah so
I'm developing a language and I'm calling it my own
so take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
that on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what you might think about me
you'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you home
baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
That I could be the one to turn you out
we could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away
like the geek in the pink...

Yeah that song... I'm trying to learn it, singing and playing and all. It's not impossible!

Johari

2006-05-07T08:41:00.000+08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

adaptable, introverted, sentimental

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able, brave, complex, dependable, extroverted, helpful, intelligent, logical, mature, quiet, self-conscious, shy, silly, sympathetic, trustworthy, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

accepting, idealistic, observant

Unknown

(known to nobody)

bold, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, confident, dignified, energetic, friendly, giving, happy, independent, ingenious, kind, knowledgeable, loving, modest, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, proud, reflective, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, sensible, spontaneous, tense, warm, wise

Dominant Traits

60% of people think that Abelardo is complex
60% of people think that Abelardo is helpful

All Percentages

able (40%) accepting (0%) adaptable (20%) bold (0%) brave (20%) calm (0%) caring (0%) cheerful (0%) clever (0%) complex (60%) confident (0%) dependable (40%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (20%) friendly (0%) giving (0%) happy (0%) helpful (60%) idealistic (0%) independent (0%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (20%) introverted (20%) kind (0%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (20%) loving (0%) mature (20%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (20%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (20%) sensible (0%) sentimental (20%) shy (20%) silly (40%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (20%) tense (0%) trustworthy (20%) warm (0%) wise (0%) witty (40%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 9.5.2006, using data from 5 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view Abelardo's full data.

Am i really complex? aha.. and now helpful as well... eh who's 'weird' ahh?

Second time this week

2006-05-07T07:24:00.000+08:00

I'm improving. Now I've posted twice in this week instead of around once a month. haha
I've been looking at some french proverbs (at this early hour??? haha) and there are some that have caught my attention. So.. french proverbs 101 begins.

Aide-toi, le ciel t'aidera.
-Help yourself and the heavens(God) will help you. (how true)

Demain il fera jour.
-Tomorrow is another day. (like, duh)

Ce qui s’excuse, s’accuse.
-That who excuses oneself accuses oneself.

Chacun son métier, les vaches seront bien gardées.
-Each to his craft, the cows will be well looked after (like why cows?)

Ce n'est pas la vache qui crie le plus fort qui donne le plus de lait.
-It is not the cow who shouts the loudest who gives the most milk. (haha.. cow again)

Filer à l'anglaise.
-To take French leave. (haha. french says English, english says French)

Une fois n'est pas coutume.
-One time does not make a habit.

Hâtez-vous lentement.
-Make haste slowly. (err...)

Il faut qu'une porte soit ouverte ou fermée.
-A door must either be open or closed. (so which one is it? =P)

Il faut tourner sa langue sept fois dans sa bouche avant de parler.
-One must turn the tongue seven times in the mouth before speaking. (isn't that a bit too much?)

Secret de deux, secret de Dieu; secret de trois, secret de tous.
-Secret of two, secret of God; secret of three, secret of all

La vérité est dans le vin.
-The truth is in the wine. (let's all get drunk!)

C'est le ton qui fait la chanson.
-It is the tone that makes the song. (I like this one)

Les murs ont des oreilles.
-The walls have ears. (*gasp* Lol)

Quand le vin est tiré, il faut le boire.
-When the wine is drawn, it must be drunk. (damn right!)

Quand on veut, on peut.
-When we want, we can.

Qui dort dîne.
-He who sleeps dines. (like huh?)

Qui vole un œuf vole un bœuf.
-He who steals egg steals beef. (erm.. what does egg have to do with beef?)

Souvent femme varie, bien fol qui s'y fie.
-Woman is fickle, man beware. (Like WTH?? haha)

Vache de loin a lait assez.
-Cow afar has milk aplenty. (Lol. cow again)

Aha. okay I'll stop here then. A good review for my french. wahahaha
One last one...

L'habit ne fait pas le moine.
-The cowl does not make the monk. (wait wasn't that in Twelfth Night somewhere??)

Good morning world! aha.. keep blogging in the morning.
@)-,--

2006-05-06T06:08:00.000+08:00

I should really try to blog more. There's kinda like a very big gap there for the month of April. haha
Guess I'll start from there.

Tila ibon kung lumipad
Sumabay sa hangin
Akoy napatingin
Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga

So. April hasn't really been much, just one of those months that pass by and you don't even notice. There were a number of big things though towards the end of the month. By that I mean the common tests. Aha. It's like bloody early in Anderson as compared to other schools major tests for term two.

Mapapansin kaya
Sa dami ng 'yong ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat
May pag asa bang makilala ka

The tests weren't really bad. But by that they weren't really good either. haha. I actually prepared for some subjects, namely Chemistry, Amaths and Emaths. The other subjects well... let's just say I prayed very very hard.

Awit na nananawagan
Baka sakaling napakikinggan
Pag ibig na palaisipan
Sa kanta na lang idaraan

Then this week came the results, most of them that is. Still waiting for English, Physics and Social Studies results. And there's no French test yet. Not bad really. Actually the results so far are rather good.
43/60 for Amaths (I was expecting something like 32),
33/40 for Chem theory (for this I seriously did not expect anything above 30),
90/100 for Emaths total (like WTH?!!?)
15/25 for History (now that's more like it. aha)
35/50 for Pure Lit (hmm...)
That's all as of now. Not bad...

Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala
Kahit sulyap lang darna

Then there was rock climbing one of the saturdays. Damn, I should seriously get out more nowadays. Didn't manage to reach the top of ANY wall. Ahh pathetic. But it was fun I guess, to be able to just get away from it all and just climb. Had lunch on that day at Northpoint (mr Yeo's Yishun Mall. haha) with some people. The when I got home, surprise surprise, my elder brother was back from the Philippines. haha. I seriously didn't know he was coming back that day. And a hell lot of CDs he brought to Singapore with him. haha.

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin
Para lang iyong sagipin
Ito ang tanging paraan
Para mayakap ka

Darating kaya
Sa dami ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila
Paano na kaya

Then there was the sports day games heats yesterday. Quite fun even though I was just watching. And helping the teachers in charge out. haha.
4/3 rocks! The class managed to get into the finals of BOTH ultimate frisbee and tug-of-war. Aha. Go 4/3! Champion class all the way! haha =P
The class team was told off after the frisbee match. Game too rough. Aha.
Ahh sports day coming. I promise I'll do my best for the class this year. But there's Hadi, Wei Kang and all... Damn. Stupid track sprinters. haha

Awit na nananawagan
Baka sakaling napakikinggan
Pag ibig na palaisipan
Sa kanta na lang idaraan

Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala
Kahit sulyap lang darna

That's all that's eventful I guess. Till some other time. And don't be bothered if you can't understand the words in brown. It's a Tagalog song if you haven't noticed. hehe.

Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala
Kahit sulyap lang darna

Good morning world! haha

That april..

2006-05-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Damn.

Yeah I do think i let the posting get a tad late. ahaha.

No time now though.. shall continue tomorrow. Or I think later today should be more appropriate.

G'nite

Midnight

2006-03-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

I have an extremely over due english file which I still cannot find all the contents of. Aha. Rather stupid to hand it in but it should be better than practically nothing. Hmm.. on to post?

This back to school week wasn't so bad to me. I mean schoolwise and all. Lessons were all just plain and normal, even lighter at times. For English was all the preparation for the Prelims Oral exam (already!) so all we did for the two lessons so far was read. And read. And read aloud. So far that is. Then for maths it's all on transformation, a break from all those differentiation which is very much welcome. Reflection, rotation, enlargement, stretch and shear. Quite easy to absorb, for me that is. Chemistry and Physics somehow I cannot for the life of me recall the specific lessons. Ahh never mind that then. SS and History were of course interesting, enough to keep me awake and paying attention in class at least. And Literature... isn't really bad, I mean with my teacher and all. And as much as I hate to admit it, she is good in teaching however much I may be against her. Yeah, all in all not a bad week.

That new extra lessons arangement, by the way, just seriously (pardon my being crude) sucks. The suggestion, I believe, was that we end lessons on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 1.30 so that we have 1 and a half hours for our lunch break. Well, in fairness they do end lessons at 1.30 on Tuesdays but then this management brings the extra lessons forward. Meaning extra lessons now start at 2, meaning we get half an hours break for lunch. Which is just the same as before. Stupid.

Guess that's all I have today. I have to go search for my Literature and English file contents and burn a canister out. Ahh what a night.

March..

2006-03-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

As I've said before (or haven't I?), it's the march break now. Well, it's not really much of a break because
(1) there's quite a load of homework
(2) we all are like expected to go back to school for extra lessons
Yeah.. kinda stupid actually. But never mind, if this is what it takes to do well then so be it I guess. Ha. Riiiiiight.

Hmm...

Church earlier. Our organist just now made me think again. Am I really committed to the choir? to Skapé? to the Lord? Or is it just a front? a façade? Ahhh! I don't know... I don't know at all. But this time I will stay committed! (for combined choir)

ahh.. thoughts. I doubt myself too much... I think. I'll end here then.

I've been thinkin' maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast and maybe
All my luck's washed down the drain

Yeah,good night.

And Again

2006-03-11T05:50:00.000+08:00

Boredom's come over me I guess.

hmm.. johari's window.. wonder if people would actually bother to do this.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Abelardo

Ahh...

I should seriously do something else now. Maybe breakfast =)

Ciao @)-,--

Too long

2006-03-11T04:29:00.000+08:00

Wow.. march holidays already. Time really does fly when one is having fun. Or just doing things that are not necessarily fun. It seems just seconds ago that I was anxious about steping into school again but now as a senior and now it's the end of Term1 already. Woah.. Before I know it I'd have done with my O's and graduated from Anderson. Haiz.. But I think I'd die a few times first along the way before that happens. =)

Can this be true.. Tell me can this be real..

Term1. Not really what I can call the best but still a very good term overall. Met new people both inside school and out. Hope for more happy meetings in the future? ehe. School work was generally okay. But I can definately do much much better ( should start getting serious with my work! ). And my results! ha. Not really fantastic but I'm quite happy with them, actually. Only problem is my English, which is Terrible, and Literature, which is below expectations.
And they go like this:
English C6 (and my L1 at that)
A. Maths A1
Maths A2
Chemistry A1
Physics A1
Combined Humanities A2 (surprisingly)
(-History A1)
(-Social Studies A2)
Literature B4 (surprisingly as well)

Well that's all my subjects. Fairly well but definately can still be improved on. OnlyFrench isn't there because they didn't release the results yet. The exam itself for French was like last monday. I'll fail again I bet.

That's for studies for term1. Main relfection is :
Start taking work seriously!

How can I put into words what I feel..

Now on to CCA.
ODAC has as usual been great. Although with the budget cut this year it's not as fantastic as last time (when I was sec1). But still, what makes a CCA are the people in it. This Year the seniors mainly me, Charmaine, Marina, and Edna (I also dunno why Edna's in) like chipped in alot for the planning of the activities, facilitating and helping the teachers and all that. Okay more than chipped in. haha
But seriously, like yesterday's ODAC session, the 'Leaders' (like we're branded or something) went about planning for the March hols camp. Very very rushed. It's like everything that concerned preparation was done yesterday itself. But at least something was done. Sisters Island. aha
I think I did the least amount of work for that (watched over the valuables.. hehe). But then again I have that weather thing to do (metiorological station.. boo!). Stupid risk assessment. haha
Well wish for the March camp to be a success!
I don't wanna step down! haizz

My life was complete.. I thought I was a whole..

March Holidays (or should I say March homework week?) has come. Not really particularly excited about it. As you may notice, I'm typing this at 5 in the morning. Too used to waking up early already. haha
Well at least there's March games and the ODAC camp. Those are some things to be excited about I guess.
One week. It's just gonna be too fast, I'll bet. It'll be like there's no break at all. haizz
Well at least there's something.
That's all I guess. For now. I seriously think I should update more. haha

You make mw feel like I'm losing control..

Yes you. You know who you are. Well.. okay maybe not. hehe

Au revoir!

Dare you to move?

2006-01-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

Huh

Another day..

Another pile of homework. No actually It's the same pile, only there's more added to it from today. Argh. And I have like multiple overdue works. Let's see.
A. Maths - Differentiation (5)
Maths - Loci and Construction (5)
Maths - Circle Properties
Chemistry - Experiment 20
Physics - Latent Heat experiment worksheet
haha.. alot of maths. Huh. Anyways, life's not all about homework yeah?

School today was okay I guess. PE was stupid(there's no other way to put it) but fun nonetheless. I mean come on bunch of sec4 people carrying each other around the place, now that's just weird. Lessons were all generally okay. English, entertaining due to Ananda and his shallow speech about that old man. haha. stupid old man.

Maaaan. School's been a killer lately. I've never really had this feeling before. I mean the homework load is okay but somehow when I get home I just feel so damn tired all the time. And it's just February! My goodness, wonder what happens to me when we get to like August or July. I'll die man. Huh

Guess that's all for now. Gotta go do my homework now. Those up there plus Differentiation (6) . Ahh misery. Oh and Common Tests start next week. Damn. I'm really gonna die soon.

Well.. Au revoir!

Stupid time and date won't set properly.. Ahh heck.

Reflection...

2006-01-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

It's seriously been too long. To think about it I only started this blog because of boredom and that I had nothing better to do. And it may only be appropriate that I stop blogging because I already have forgotten to for more than a month. BUT.

Yes, but. But I'll continue to blog. I'll try to keep at least this, if I can't my homework, as something I'll do without fail. AT LEAST. haha

Now on to blogging.

January. Can't believe it just passed by like that. 4 weeks and now 4 weeks closer to 'O's. huh. that's cruel. Anyways, many things have happened this month. Entering school as a sec4. The senior of the school. Man... I feel so old. Especially cause I'm like, yeah 2 years over-age. Haha. 18 this year. 18! 2 years to 20! Bloody old!
Sec 4/3 this year. Hey, even though I'm not in the best of terms with most of you, hope this year starting February it'll all change. And for the better, I mean. But whatever the case I still love this class of mine.
January. And so far only two ODAC sessions. One of which was stocktaking. Sad. Hope this year we really do more things. Especially climbing. Yes, I like climbing over all other ODAC things. Pity I never really get to climb much.
Oh and I do think there is now one more Filipino in Anderson. Or Filipina for that matter. I may be wrong so I ain't typing out her name here just yet. Cross fingers? haha
School work so far ain't really so bad. Still bad, but not very bad. And those "extra" lessons really are killing us. Well, me for sure. I'm like when I get home I only eat and sleep to prevent myself from falling ill. Nearly no time for homework. And I seriously don't know how in the world I can still manage some of the homework. huh. "Extra" lessons indeed. Very troublesome and problematic. Not a waste of time though. Just unbelievably tiring.

All in all January has so far been good. Hope this year continues to to be well. Anyways I think I should stop here. Stop blogging. Hmm... Well, I'll try to blog regularly from now on. TRY. haha.

Cherios!

Alive! Alive and well!

2005-12-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

Posting from the philippines.. my cousins have (fortunately?) a com that has internet! haha. That allows me to update.. hmm..

Well it's been fun and all for me here. Nearly a week already and I haven't missed Singapore one bit. Well.. some aspects are missed.. especially since my phone somehow disallows me to sms internationally.. and, yes, I have a line here but I still haven't gone around to figuring out my number. Pathetic... haha.

It's good to be back I suppose.. can't believe how much it's different. The days all seem so much longer for one..

Stop here for now.. internet connection here's kinda like by using prepaid cards.. and I'm using up my cousins'.. okay then.. till next time for me!

Au revoir!

~peace out~

2005-11-23T11:30:00.001+08:00

going out later

moive

ha!

who with, you'll have to find out for yourself if you wanna know.

2005-11-23T11:30:00.000+08:00

Home Sweet Home

by Motley Crue

You know I'm a dreamer

But my heart's of gold

I had to run away high

So I wouldn't come home low

Just when the things weren't right

Doesn't mean they were always wrong

Just take this song

And you'll never feel

Left all alone

Take me to your heart

Feel me in your bones

Just one more night

And I'm comin' off this

Long and winding road

I'm on my way

Home sweet home

Tonight, tonight

I'm on my way

Home sweet home

You know that I've seen

Too many romantic dreams

Up in lights

Falling off the silver screen

My heart's like an open book

For the whole world to read

Sometimes nothing

Keeps me together at the seams

I'm on my way

Home sweet home

Tonight, tonight

I'm on my way

Just set me free

Home sweet home

Update

2005-11-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

woohoo! finally here to update. And I don't have any excuses for this long intervals in updating. For this time I simply forgot all about this junk, aka blog. Guess I don't really quite care. But that's just me.

Anyways, on to updating.

Last week I finally (yes, FINALLY) managed to go on an ODAC year-end expedition (After 3 years in the CCA!). 13-18 Nov. It was fun, that was. Going to Hong Kong to trek on some mountains (SOME mountains... okay hills but it's still a number of them). We'll... okay the trekking wasn't really fun.. more like torturous... but the company made it so. And ODAC ppl I mean all of you, not just one person. Loved the time there, especially the shopping! LoL! Yes I went shopping. More like WINDOW shopping but who cares! It's still shopping! And at Hong Kong at that. ha!

3 years on of all that PT and 2 years of being bullied by juniors and I still don't regret joining ODAC from that God forsaken CCA open house.

Hmm... okay I'm stuck. I seem to suck at this blogging thing. A FRIGGIN LOT! haha. This reeks, I have no clue on what to type.
Oh, yeah, though I resolved myself to writing some poetry whilst abroad (I mean Hong Kong, I know I'm still a foreigner here in Singapore) I didn't, reapeat, did NOT, get anything (not even a line) done. I suck. Can't even get keep a promise to myself. huh.

Poetry is the voice of society. Screaming out its meaning yet not being understood.

Guess that's all for now. Don't have any photos of anything in Hong Kong though. Forgot my camera. Sad. Can anyone send me some photos from hong kong?
Try to UPDATE more often. And I'll try to make a log of what happened in Hong Kong. If I don't get lazy.

~Peace out~

Snippets

2005-10-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

May the seed not fall far from the tree.

Life is filled with choices. So much so that everything is of a choice irregardless of what it may be.

Nike ACGs rock! Stone! Boulder!!!

The human brain is but a small fraction of the human mind.

Like the wind that sweeps dust off our war-waery feet.

Who called for a big hairy plumber? - Bow chicka bow wow.

And so it begins.(????)

Why do i ask why if i do not even have anything to ask why about?

F*** the f***ing f***ers. (Yes, it's possible to have sentence constructed only with f***)

Western academia deadens the mind. (Damn right!)

If they're extra and they're problems, why give them to us? (Extra maths problems)

End of the line, pal.

Discrimination will always be present in the society that is present today.

Hello ladies. I came here to lay some pipes. - Bow chicka bow wow.

Muahahahahahaha. (I can still do that)[i think]

This is weird blogging indeed.

Guess that's all i'm posting now. Don't ask me why i posted that. I'm a mystery even to myself.
~Peace out~

Hi

2005-09-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

New sandals.
Nike ACG.
Again.
Haha.

Life's still going on for me.
I just wish things turned out better.
In every way.
But I'll never have that.
That's life.

Hmm.

I'll be going for OBS tomorrow.
That'll be fun.
I think.
Guess that's all for now.
I'll try to post more next time.
Try.

I like short incomplete scentences.

Lost and Found

2005-08-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

Here

Not there

Not anywhere else

But here

- Abelardo L. Paune Jr.

Like lightning

2005-08-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

I'm just not meant for this.

When will I be me again?

I can't think of enough things to type out about in one singular blog post.

When?

That's why my posts are rather pathetically short as compared to those avid bloggers who, for some absurd reason, have enough happenings in a day of their lives to type out a full essay.

Help? I don't think anyone can help.

Bah! I don't care. This is my blog. I shall not care.

It'll all be over soon... I hope.

Har

2005-08-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

And so here I am again. After a month(has it been already?) of missed posts and wasted opportunities I am, once again, here to fill this space (I like yellow) with worthless crap that hardly anyone(or no one at all) ever reads. Yay! i'm so proud of my work(or miswork)! Anyway on to posting

As I've probably(or not) mentioned I do not intend to fill this blog with events of my past or meaningless rantings by my (most probably) uncontrolled emotions. Instead I will fill this PATHETIC space (I like SCREAMING BOLD lettering in yellow) with worthless crap that hardly anyone(or no one at all) ever reads. Hmm. Think.

You know(or not, it's my opinion anyway) thinking is very stupid. For one when you start thinking of your work and how you should do your work your mind works instead of your body and as such stops you from working. Which is bloody stupid. Because it defeats the purpose. However if you start thinking that thinking is stupid you stop working then won't get any work done and then you start thinking that thinking actually is smart. Which is just plain stupid. So that proves my point of thinking being stupid. *grins*

That's just stupid.

Oh and I got new shoes. Nike ACG. Again. I have a thing for ACGs.

Anywho, I just thought that I should make this post like long because I want to make up for the month's worth of posts that I missed to my readers(if any).

I like the heading of this post. It's utterly senseless and totally unconnected to the post and unbelieveably improbable to be used as a blog post heading. Genius!

Randomnity. Randomnity is nice. It's nice and random. You'll never know what hit you even after it hits. You'll only know if it actually tells you what it is that actually hit you and when it actually hit you. Ah yes, randomnity. Exactly how our lives work. Think you can figure that one out? Think again. Life and how it works can never be figured out by any one person. Any one persons probably yes but not by any one person. That's life. And that's how it works.

Guess i'm breaking my promise of a long blog post. Got to get some sleeeeeeep. My head's all floaty because of high notes and a bus. I do that all the time. Ciao! @)-,--

2005-07-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

Semi-Charmed Life
by Third Eye Blind

Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do

I'm packed and I'm holding, I'm smiling
She's living, she's golden, she lives for me
She says she lives for me
Ovation, her own motivation
She comes round and she goes down on me
And I make her smile like a drug for you
Do ever what you want to do
Coming over you
Keep on smiling what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you

And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
Come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play, she said

I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life, baby, baby
I want something else, I'm not listening when you say
Goodbye

Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do

The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish it could get back there
Some place back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break
It won't stop, I won't come down
I keep stock with a tick-tock rhythm and a bump for the drop
And then I bumped up, I took the hit that I was given
Then I bumped again, and then I bumped again
And said
How do I get back there?
To the place where I fell asleep inside you?
How do I get myself back to the place?
where you said

I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life, baby, baby
I want something else, I'm not listening when you say
Goodbye

I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling;an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right

When the plane came in she said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city
We tripped on the urge to feel alive
But now I'm struggling to survive
Those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You're the priestess I must confess
Those little red panties they pass the test
Slide up around the belly face down on the mattress
One, and you hold me
And we are broken
Still it's all that I want to do
Just a little now

Feel myself heavy off the ground
I'm scared I'm not coming down, no, no
And I won't run for my life
She's got her jaws now locked down in a smile
But nothing is all right, all right

And I want something else to get me through this life, baby
And I want something else, I'm not listening when you say
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo

The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish it could get back there
Some place back there
To the place we used to start

Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo
(I want something else)
Do-do-do, do-do-do-doo

Love this song... it's nice..

The Final Chapter

2005-07-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

In case you're wondering, no this is NOT the 'Final Chapter' of my blog i.e. I'm not closing it down. This is just a supposedly "inspirational quote/story" that i was tasked to read tuesday last week. And no I didn't write it i just read it out. In front of the school. During morning assembly. Damn I was nervous then. My hand was shaking. Ahh... on to the thing then

The Final Chapter - Audrina Jones Bunton

Several months ago, I read an article about a successful, 22 year old lady who died a premature death in a car crash. The more I read this article, the heavier my heart became because she died in the midst of her formative years. Equally heart-rending was the fact that she died before completing a book that she was writing; before completing her final chapter.

Right now your own book is being written; and you are the author. Every moment that passes, every day that comes and goes, your pages are being filled. Every word you speak and every action you take. How you live and how you treat others shape the pages of your book from cover to cover.

In retrospect, perhaps the beginning of your book may not have been well-written because of mistakes or unwise decisions on your part. Always remember, however, that you are the starring character. You control how the rest of your book will read; whether you want to be the hero that saves the day or you want to be the villain. It is all up to you.

So start a new chapter today, a chapter that would give you and others a delight to read. Enjoy who you are and what you do; it is your book after all. Keep writing and live life to the fullest.

That's it from me for now then. Till next post!

Oh and that was made by a classmate of mine by the name of Siti Zahidah. Cheers!

Boredom

2005-06-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

Still can't get that tamplate thing. Never mind I'll just post then.

Guess I found myself free time again. With nothing on my mind to post. Oh well, I'll just run through my aims and goals in my blogging then. The 'What I want to accomplish' crap and all that. And of course it shall be presented in a simple, yet elegant, bulleted list.

Hexer's Bulleted List:

I will aim to improve my english by typing out the words properly and in full.
I will give try to give myself intelectual topics to blog about and not just wallow in self pity or something like that.
I will give myself ample time to do my homework next holiday
wait that's kinda out of the point..
I should get out of this bulleted list thing.

And, as you can see, I don't really have much aim for this blog. It's just some sort of stress-reducion thing for me. To just type out proper nonsense and all. Hmmm... Speaking of proper nonsense, I still have that poem thing due tomorrow. Guess I better do it now. And since i have to type it out, what better place to do it but on my blog. =D

Ahh, never mind, I can't make it work. Guess I'll stop here then owing to the fact that I really am out of ideas to type out here. Good bye. Oh yes, the disclaimer before i forget.

Disclaimer: If you have any problems whatsoever with what i have blogged then screw you, you can't do anything about it. It's my blog after all.

Hmmm..

2005-06-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

Damn i suck at this.I can't get a hang of that template thing.

I seriously need help (I think).

I'm not going anywhere with this. If you think you can help me then add comments, please, cause I seriously need them help (like i said earlier).

*Sigh*

Hope I can get this thing to work.

Hello world

2005-06-20T08:02:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..

This is my first blog post. Honestly I'm not really THAT excited in blogging. Why I started blogging is more like this:
> Damn I'm bored
> That blog looks nice
> I've nothing better to do, why not make one myself?
> Heck i've nothing to lose except time

So here I am, sitting infront of the computer, typing like an idiot, avoiding my homework, blah. Holidays get so boring when one has nothing to do. Well, nothing INTERESTING that is.

That's my 'hello' then.